Premature Babies

As a women, almost everyone thinks of whta having a child will be like. They pick the sex they'd want to have. The names they would want to give their child.

Once pregnant you prepare the room, you prepare the clothes, the name, the parties, and all that comes with preparing your nest, which also includes your birth plan.

Do you want to give birth at the hospital, or with a mid wife at home?

Do you want the epidural or live the full experience.

Everyone has their view on the subject and sometimes give it even without being asked.

This is the oldest conversation in the book. Conceiving / Children / Producing an heir / Giving Life... You name it, it's all part of the circle of life.

It's magical and beautiful. We have it in our head. We see it on TV. We all have an idea of what we want.

UNTIL.... The plan goes OUT THE WINDOW and give you God's plan instead.

It can be a wide range of situation. A premature baby, a still death, a health problem or anything that is not considered "Normal", rocks the boat of any parent living through it.

In my case it was Premature. I was 32 weeks pregnant, ready to have my baby in a birthing center with a midwife. They are rare to have. I was so proud of myself. I was going to give my daughter the best start to her life. A calm environment, with music, a warm bath, no noise, just care ans soothing moments. I even did the Hypno-birthing course, to try to avoid the epidural.

So at 32 weeks of pregnancy I have a normal check up, until I'M told to be bed ridden. I was 8 cm dialated. She could come at anytime.

34 weeks and 4 days, a giant lump of placenta detached. I had to go to the hospital and give birth. My plan was out the door. No more birthing center for me. Just being attached to a monitor for hours. 6 hours later she was born, healthy, but early. A few important function yet to develop, but very healthy. We were lucky.

With a premature baby came, no baby shower. No celebration of my daughter coming into this world. Before being born. Almost no clothes, no diapers, no wipes, not buggy, not much, but the love of her parents ready to meet their beautiful daughter.

She was gorgeous. The most beautiful being I had ever laid eyes on. She made me a MOM. The most beautiful title I'll ever be given.

Once you give birth prematurely, your chances of giving birth to another premature child increases. Which I was now ready for, once pregnant again, 10 months later. We we're expecting again. Another beautiful girl. This time I knew to take it easier. Work less. Stress less... which is almost impossible, when you're self employed...

I knew this would be my last child. I knew I wanted 2 kids. That was it for me. She would be the last pregnancy I would live and appreciate.

At 20 weeks I was bed ridden. They didn't want to take the chance. I had to take it easy, in order to givde myself a chance to have this baby as late as possible.

34 and 3 days came, and she was very excited to come and meet us too. In the hospital, we stayed 10 days, before returning home. She was beautiful. An angel! She made me realize that LOVE has no limit. It can multiply. Love is infinite. She made my heart grown even bigger I ever thought possible. Thanks to her I am now a mom of 2 beautiful daughters, Blessed with the most valued title I'll ever get. Mother of 2 grandiose daughters. They light my heart and my life with an infinite amount of joy. They will never fully understand how they made my life full and complete... Until maybe one day, if they themselves walk to path of motherhood.

I will then experience the joys of being a grand-mother. Which apparently, is even better than being a mother. Fingers crossed! No pressure girls!! :)

Back to the original topic, of having your plans be changed. It's scary in the moment. It fill you with doubt and questions. 13 years later, my daughters are healthy, strong, caring, bright girls who are turning into the most beautiful women I know. And I am proud to be their mother.

Trust yourself in your path, no matter if you're following the plan you had or if God is putting you on a different path. It all makes sence at some point. Lead your life with LOVE. LOVE is key to all human beings. We strive on LOVE and Flourish on LOVE. For all Human Beings.

Cheers to LOVE!

Premature Babies and a Change in Birth Plans