New Beginnings / January 1st 2025

The last 8 months of my life have been the hardest ever lived for me.

I felt like the world had crumbled from under my feet and every effort I put into rebuilding it, simply crumbled again and again under my feet.

At first, no one was helping, I didn't want help, I didn't know how to get help... I was broken, demolished, in excruciating pain and unable to recognize myself.

At that point the only thing I knew was that this was going to be one of those crossroads in a lifetime that you reach, that changes you or breaks you. I knew what I wanted, however hard it was going to be, but I wanted to be changed for the better. One of those crossroads where you are never the same again. It makes you grow, makes you learn and become closer to the best or worst version of yourself.

I had to turn for help in order to get to the best version of myself. Accept help. Realize that I had to get help. Most of the way I did it on my own, because no one can lift you up, other than yourself, if you really want to.

It is also when and where I realized who my real friends are and relationships are. The ones I want to continu my life with. The ones that matter. The ones that show up at your worst, are the ones that are worth fighting for. Its not always clear at first, but in due time, it becomes clearer.

Even if you've had harder times in the past with those people at a better time in your life, if they show up at your worst, never under estimate the healing power they can provide and what kind of healing power it gives you to continue healing.

Those 8 months of my life have taught me how resilient, strong, powerful and fierce I am. How to set my boundaries, my limits, recognize my needs and desires and appreciate my full value. Not let anyone else define who I am and who I will become.

I have more power within myself than anyone else could ever give me.

This works for everyone. You simply have to believe in your process, time is a healer, resting when you need it without judgement and self care. One day at a time, brings you eventually into the light and out of the darkness. The light becomes brighter as time goes by.

Always remember that happiness is NOT a destination, but a journey. So in order to bring yourself into the life, you have to make time to appreciate the beauty in this world, the simple things a day can bring and appreciate what surrounds you.

I had set January 1st, or the NEW YEAR as my starting line. Even if its a journey, I wanted the new year to become that start of something new. A guide line to not allow myself to degrade past this time. Having a set time to heal can help you move on to the next phase of your grief or evolution.

After these 8 months I am proud of the person I am becoming and I look forward to all the beautiful things I will accomplish in the next 8 months.

I see the world differently, with more peace, kindness, love and joy. I approach it with no judgement and more care. Believing that all is possible, if I continue believing in myself and my journey.

You deserve to do the same and find peace.

On New Years Day, when the clock hits 12:00AM, we often hear people wish you Love, Abundance and Health.

What do you wish for yourself today and tomorrow?

What date will you set yourself to find your light?

Who will you ask for help to bring you closer to "the you" more at peace?

What are the first three things that define you? (write them down and start there)

I wish you, wether you are going through something hard in your life or are simply looking for motivation:

Kindness to yourself

Lots of moments of Joy

Beautiful magical moments of self discovery

Discovering what "Simple moments of happiness" mean

Happy New Year to you and your loved one.

May 2025 bring you solace and kindness.