Introspections on Life Phases

Being young should rhyme with living our childhood with safety and love.  It's not the case for child. 

Some have to grow up quicker than others. Some are born in wars.  Some in families with hardships, some in very comfortable families.  It's the path you chose before coming to live your human life. 

It may not seem fair or we might not understand why we live different lives to others, but the answer will come throughout your life, or maybe never. But there is always a deeper meaning to every situation.

It was after the last chapter of my life, that I started to really grow up quickly. Quicker than most. I had already seen more than many, heard more and lived more than many 5 year olds.

The calm had just set in... Just like a healing scab that's been picked several times.... A deeper wound that turns into a scar. The scar is a new healed skin, but it always leaves a permanent mark. Which is how I felt about the previous chapter of my life.

How weird that a 5 year old can already talk about life chapters... But it was my reality...

The inbetween. The time where it was just my mom, my brother and I. I know my mom found it hard to be a single mother. Making ends meet. Raising 2 children on her own. My ever present grand-parents, we're always nearby to help. Even with the harder times my mom had with her father as a young girl, she could still find refuge in her family home.

This was another period of time where life felt safer. 

I felt older and wiser than most kids.. I felt different than them. I didn't know why. Today I can easily say it's because of HIM. Of those 18 months spent with him, at only 5 years of age. A third of my young life. It felt like forever.

Heart healing, we moved to a new place. It was our new safe space.

It was 6 months of just the 3 of us.  Then came a new man into our lives. He was tall. He was kind. He was playful. I even asked him if he could sleep over on the first night. That's how much I enjoyed being around him. 

He took us both, my brother and I, under his wing. We became his and he became our dad.

He made my mom happy. Which made me happy. We were again a family of 4.

A new Chapter was about to begin...

Let’s recap quickly first...

After all these years later, I thank HIM for his passage in my young life and for forging a part of the character of the person I am today. For a long time I hated him, but I can safely thank him today and see what implication he had in who I am today. Its ok to resent someone, but its also important to one day release yourself from the hold certain people have on you, only by what space you allow them to have in your mind and daily life. By letting go, you are setting yourself free and allowing for fresh love to fill this old void. Only good can come from it. You deserve it! You are worth it!

Those in between phases, in life, are there to appreciate the better times. Gives us time to understand why we lived through something tough. The ups show us the beauty in the hardships and what we’ve learned from them. 

Have you taken the time to introspect about your hardships? What you’ve learned from them? What it taught you? What good came out of it?

Take the time to step back and review those hardship and learn from what it taught you. Write it down and learn from it. You will see yourself Grow from it.

One day at a time. Stop seeing those hardship as things happening to you, but as Life’s way of teaching you more about yourself, one step at a time.