8. Another Chapter

Life is not a straight line up to the top and "then you die"... NO, it is a series of events that build you, your character and make you live all sorts of emotions.

The stair case can be steep at times, true, but other times you will find solace and warmth...

6 months after the death of Him, the "New Man" came into our lives. He was tall. He was kind. He was playful. I even asked him if he was staying over to sleep. That's how much I enjoyed having him around. He took us both, my brother and I, under his wing. We became his and my mom's. It made my mom happy. It made us all happy.

We spent time with him. He spent time with us. He was kind and fun. He would pick me up from school on his motorbike, I felt cool. He would help me with my homework, which made me feel special. He would cook, play, study for his degree... He was going places! It finally felt right.

Becoming his children wasn't always easy for him, with his family, but he stood his ground. It was what he wanted and what we all wanted. It brought joy to us all.

My mom was happy. He was making my mom Happy and we felt safe. Nothing mattered more to me than those years.

I remember the time when I learned I was going to become a big sister once again. This time it was a girl. I was even involved in the name choosing process. I really felt a part of something great. For the first time since I was born, I had a mother, a sibling, another one on the way and a Father. The whole package. I wasn't too much for no one. I wasn't in the way. I wasn't a burden. I was allowed just to be. Isn't that just what al children want and deserve?!

Not long before my mom was about to give birth, my brother and I were taken to my grand-parents house. It was time for us to welcome our new sister. She was tiny, she was beautiful. I felt very protective of her. Another human part of our circle of love.

This new man brought so much more than I'd ever experienced. He was great! My sister was great! My mom was happy. My brother was happy. I was happy!

Things started to shift after a few years....

The ups and downs of life aren't always easy to navigate for everyone. Sometimes the situation you live in makes it harder to pull yourself outside of the tough situation and makes you take decisions you later regret. Hard times can bring hard decisions.

However, it is important to surf the wave of the good times and them, saver them and see them for what they are and how they are forming you. All situation have a part of the life path you are on. Don't over analyze everything. Live in the present moment, give up the hold you have on making everything right. Live the present moment. You are worth it!