28. Wanting to leave it all behind and start Fresh

I had my 2 beautiful daughters, I was my own boss with a booming business, I had a great husband… but I had that feeling that something was missing… That I wasn’t living the life I was supposed to live. That there should be more… I was also missing living in the heat – with the warm sun that we had in Thailand…

There was no way I was going to leave my family behind, but the rest seemed disposable… Like I could do it all again, but differently and somewhere else.

The house, the job, the business, the life I had created for myself… I've never been scared to drop things and start fresh... sometimes a little bit too quickly.

Ewan and I have always been on the same wavelength when it comes to picking up and leaving… Living an adventurous life and living life to the fullest. We know we could be happy anywhere in the world, as long as we have each other and obviously our kids. We are just those types of people who are fearless and prefer a challenge to monotony. That’s why we fit so well together. (Things do get a little harder to leave behind when your kids are older... but there's always a compromise that can be done)

So that’s what we did… I sold my business to my then new associate, then wrapped up our belongings and left, to try and live in the BVI. (British Virgin Islands). Obviously, we had done our research and it all seemed possible… Money wise. We had potential jobs lined up and some money in our pockets, to give it a try… We had done some research about the living wages, the cost of living and what schools our daughters could attend, so we gave ourselves a month to try it out.

So on December 31st 2015 we got on a flight and went to spend the next month of our lives there. All 4 of us. A 3 and a 4 year old tagging along, to get everything sorted. (A job, an apartment, a car, schooling, insurance and more).

We got on the island feeling very hopeful…Before leaving we had made some appointments for job interviews, homes and schools to visit. We even met up with people we knew there and tried to fit in… Things became harder than they seemed very quickly. After a month we realized that it wasn’t for us any longer. The stability we had gotten used to, that we could provide our family back at home, for our children and the work we could provide ourselves, was much more important than that small feeling that we felt… It could be revisited in the future, we thought.

After realizing this, we stayed there for the entire month and came back home. A little disapointed, but ready to start fresh...

When we got back home, we sold our home and other building we owned and decided to start fresh, but back where we belonged, at home, in Canada.

Ever since this escapade, we‘ve realized that home is where the heart is, but safety and stability was more important to us at that time, for what we wanted to provide our children, than any kind of frivolity we were trying to achieve.

It all stems from what you want to provide your family, your values and what priority you have in your life at the moment an event or an opportunity occurs.

We can all succeed in our own way.

The grass always seems greener elsewhere, but it rarely is. Usually only temporarily greener and then the reality kicks in.

Finding your way is part of the journey on this planet and in this body. No matter what path you get on, you’ll always finish where you were meant to end up.

To each its own path in life. You have to follow your intuition and evaluate your values and goals, to then make a decision that is right for you, and your family.